You know, I never really thought about it until now, but Canada Day marks the 2nd half of the year, doesn’t it? Since it’s on July 1st and everything. And I guess I didn’t think about it that way for a long time, because for most of my Canadian life, I’ve been a student, and I only thought of July as the start of summer. But now that I’m working, and I tend to think in quarterly, or even year-long milestones, July 1 seems a lot more significant.
That also means I have a day-off today, and because I work for a nice, very Canadian company, we’re given extra long weekends during the summer. So I spent the last 4 days mostly at home, recovering from the epic failure of my driving test last Tuesday. I watched a lot of YouTube and I ate at a lot. I tried to do things that would make me feel better.
So, like I said in the previous post, I just finished draft 5 of my story. While I’m waiting for feedback on this draft, I’m going to try and work on that website I’ve been going on about forever. The thing is, I feel like a good website needs a lot of good graphic, and I’m just not that good at design. I have half a mind to hire a web designer, but I know they can be expensive, compared to DIY alternatives (though I don’t know how good DIY ones are these days). Same with artwork. I’ve gone back to Nathan Fowke’s Pictorial Composition on my Schoolism subscription, but I just don’t think I have the experience and skills to execute the kind of artwork I’d want to see on the website. So, I guess that’s where I’m stuck.
I’m going back to work tomorrow, and after a 4-day break, I’m hit with post-vacation blues. I know it’s too short to call a “vacation.” And I suppose I like my work enough that sometimes I’m just baffled why I have blues at all. But I read an article that said that even people who like their jobs experience blues, because jobs just aren’t the kind of things you’d do on your vacation. It’s just a different experience entirely.
I know that I didn’t start off this year in a very positive note. I was sort of very ‘meh,’ very ‘bleh,’ about the coming of 2019. I didn’t feel like it was a mark of a new start, because I wasn’t optimistic that things were going to change that much. I don’t mean that in a bad way. Things are more or less okay… and at that time I just didn’t feel like change was coming.
But I do feel like that attitude made things very… well, dull and unchanging during the 1st half of the year. I didn’t really accomplish much. I feel like I’m not advancing my career in any meaningful way. I don’t achieve milestones in my life. The only thing that’s really progressing is my story, because that’s the only project I really like working on. So I was thinking lately… what if I apply the same attitude I have towards my story to other areas of my life? Would I feel more eager about them?
Anyway, this post is mostly just musings of someone who’s gearing up to go back to work tomorrow, but still trying to enjoy the last bits of her break. I know this is a bit disorganized, but this blog has been so quiet lately, I feel like a bit of random chattiness is warranted.